Diary

I have so many problems that its like impossible to put into words. My mother whom I call (Kris) is crazy. She has boarder-line personality, depression, and a shit load of otha stuff. She's been in jail. So has my father, for excessive use of pills. In school people make fun of me like "Slut", "Ugly" "fat" "loser".. And so on.. I started stealing my dads tranquilizers and I cut. He found out bout it now he treats me like I'm some fucking mass murderer!! Whatever.. I couldn't take it any more so I ran away

I am 13 years old and on November 24, 2003, my friend and I ran away... Here are some diary entries I wrote

5:30 PM
we are packing our bags then were outta this fuckin hellhole. I HATE SMALL TOWNS! My friend took the food, and I took the blankets and water bottles. We bundled up in our sweatshirts, two pairs of pants, layers of socks, and our jackets. I kissed my friend good-bye as he desperately tried to talk us out of it. But our minds were already made...were running away.

6:00 PM
It's not too cold outside. I 'm sweating with all these clothes on. We walked (more like ran) down "M" street, we just wanted to get out of our small town so that it would be harder for the police to find us.

6:33 PM
We just past O'connors yesss!!! Were finally in the city! We just got on a back road ... so we wouldn't be out in the open for like rapists to find us. It's getting soooo cold OMYGOD I cant feel my friggin feet. We took a break at a street curb.

7:00 PM
Hey didn't we already pass that house? Shit.. We musta gone in a fuckin circle!! Let's take the next back road. We did.

7:30 PM
Turned out that goddamn street connected to the otha neighborhood we just got out of! So now were back on the main street...

7:45 PM
Were at some Chinese restaurant to use the rest rooms. *Evil stares* Why can't people just mind there own fucking buisness?! Shouldn't we start looking for a place to sleep? Hey.. How bout' the woods by the movies?

8:00 PM
ohmygod!! It feels so nice being all warm ... after searching for what seemed like hours we finally found a place to sleep. Noone could see us because there was a fence and a cement thing above our heads.

8:30 PM
WOW.. I wasnt prepared for this!! ITS SOOOOOOO COLD!!! I can make it..We can make it just dont think about the fact that I cant feel my toes...

9:00 PM I fell asleep for a half and hour these dumb ass kids keep on screaming! GO HOME!!

9:30 PM
God I shouldn't have brought her.. (my "friend") she wont stop fucking complaining.. HELLO I'mfeelin it to!! I kept on telling her GO HOME if u want to but I need to wait until afternoon to go back IF I went back.

10:00 PM
Can't sleep... we have to sheets under us but I can still feel the freezing cold ground. It's 28 degrees out!! All we have covering us is an even more freezing cold sleeping bag.. and SHE keeps on hogging all the covers!

11:00 PM I can't believe that Thanksgiving is in 2 days... my familys gonna flip! Actually, they might not.. They probably havent even noticed..

12:00 AM
Anotha hour of sleep... SHIT I gotta pee!! I got my friendup and we went to see if the movies were still open cause all the lights were on inside. There was this black car like 2 inches away from the entrance, and all the doors were open. It took me a while, but we finally figured out that it was a burglary.

12:15 AM
Cops came.. We like literally held our breaths so they couldn't hear us. Luckily they didn't and soon left. I looked over at my friend and she almost fainted. WHAT? WHAT IS IT?! Your face!! look in this mirror... My face was purple!! I was so cold... I look down at my knees and they were shaking uncontrollably. But still, I was not yet gonna give up.

1:00 AM
My friends persuasive shit ain't gonna work on me! I wish she would just shut up..I'm not leaving. I looked up at the sky, the stars were still out. I'm gonna try to get some sleep I'm soo tired.

2:55 AM I cant put up with her any more!! I HATE HER... CAN WE JUST GO HOME?! NO WE FUCKIN CANT!!!!!!! Do you know how many CRAZY ass people are out this time of night?? Shes soo gay. Once we're back I'm NEVER speaking to her again.

3:00 AM
Ya know what?! SCREW THIS... we're going home. My right leg was totally numb! I could barely walk. we were heading twards a Honey Frams she wanted to stop in there to use the rest room... as we were walking in there we saw a police car. WE HAVE TO GET OUT OF HERE! OUR PARENTS PROBABLY CALLED THEM... COME ON LETS HED BACK TO THE MOVIES WERE ONLY LIKE
5 MINUTES AWAY. Uggggghhhhh.... WHY DO I LISTEN TO HER???????!!!!!!! NoOo... she had to go in there... so we go in and the worker there gave us the dirtiest look known to humanity. (I don't blame him though, we WERE wearing backpacks at 3 in the morning.) On our way out of there we bumped right into a police officer. He didn't say anything though.. We saw him talking to the worker.. so we continued walking. There was another police car!! He asked us were we were going and why we were out at 3 in the morning. My friend being the stupid bitch she is.. was like "were just hanging out" She was so excited to be talking to the police. I wasn't though, cause I have bad experiances with them and I hate law enforcement. But anyways, he asked us our names and our phone numbers we told them and he kept on asking "if we we're sure about that" I was like YEAH OBVIOUSLY I KNOW MY OWN FUCKIN NAME. One by one police cars started filling up the parking lot of Block Busters. I say we should of ran but she didn't go for it so of couse being the follower I am I didn't go. They called our parents and we got picked up. I 'm in therapy now and I'm on Zoloft for depression. I'm planning on doing it again only WITHOUT my "friend".

My dad told me that he called my other so-called friend and she totally ratted on us she's all "ya, they were talking about this all day in school there going to o'connors thats all I know sorry" I HATE HER I HAVEN'T TALKED TO HER FOR LIKE A WEEK... AND I NEVER WILL!

Advice; if anyone reading this is having problems and you just can't handle it anymore run away. It's great to be on your own... Just watch out for the crazies. Um... BRING EXTRA CLOTHES AND BLANKETS. ITS FREEZING. Or else go in the summer.

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