Still Have Nightmares... I ran away a few months ago. At that time i was 13. I am a very angry and sad person. I grew up with out a father and sometimes was made fun for it. I was very poor for a long time and lived in the ghettos and homeless shelters of a lot of different cities. My mamas boyfriends and husbands were all very mean and there was always fighting in the house in front of me and my sister. About 3 years ago my mom left her last husband and had a couple boyfriends after that. When I was 12 my sister moved out of the apartment. All the anger and frustration that my mama had, she took out on me. I tried to express my fealings to my mama, but she just got mad. So finally I just ranaway. It was so hard to survive. I broke into many "for sale" houses just to sleep in them. I was over exausted and starving. I had to sell drugs to get money. The person that lent me the drugs got angry and tried to shoot me because I owed him money. Then I got in a argument with a boy, and he also tried to shoot me. I was raped twice. I found out I was pregnent, but I lost the baby. I was constantly running from the cops for all different things. I have barb wire scars all over my legs from running at night. I started getting really sick from lack of food, sleep, and the dirty places I slept. I finally got arrested and the police called my mama to pick me up. I still feel like running away sometimes and I have nightmares of the stuff I went through. I'm just lucky I didn't die. I just needed to talk about my experiences. I sometimes wish for a different life, but I am who I am for a reason. |