To my 15 year old that I love so much

A couple months ago my son got into some trouble. He wrote me this letter.

Mom,

I'm very sorry for what I did. I don't know why I did it, it was the stupid side of me thinking!! I'm so sorry. I was out of my mind. I didn't want to stay, but I couldn't reason with my self. If I could turn back time I would. I would never ever do anything so BAD !!!! I hate getting into trouble, but I just always do and I hate it! I'm not like what you think. I hate getting you mad, but I'm so stupid that I always do!

I'm not writing this to make you feel sorry for me. I'm just writing to tell you that I'm sorry for everything I've ever done bad and I will change! Starting now! I will do my best, try my hardest and not do bad things or hang out with bad people, or get in trouble. I love you mom.

Love Your Son,
Joel

Today my son is gone. He's gotten into deeper trouble and has runaway. He's been gone since July 10th 2002.

He's called me and said some things that no parent wants to hear, that he's never coming home and he just doesn't care anymore. He has also said that I mean nothing to him and that I could go to hell.

Why? Why can't he help himself? I can't help but lay awake at night and cry and wonder, what has happened to my little boy. I want him to know that no matter what happens I'm here for him always, no matter what he does or says. I thank God for giving me such a wonderful son. Please God look over him while he's away, make sure he gets plenty to eat and a safe place to sleep. Please be there for him when he needs you. Guide him safely home. Please son come home, we love you.

Love Mom

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